Charlie or Charles Johnson

O meni: 👁️) bought a men's mag at a gas station in Charlotte, NC back in 1971 and it had a FICTION article that said "I dig dope, and I dig sex," I do not do illegal dope in my state of the US......👁️) bought a Hustler men's mag back in the late 70's to early 80's and it had an article that had an interview with a female pornstar named Beverly Morris, and she said "big dicks are prime"...........👁️) live with intense stingy, greedy, reluctant to give n******** behavior, or "n" behavior toward me regarding making my penis wellhung long, they don't give an inch, they also follow me too closely regarding this issue thus they "tailgate" me, my 4" size is the size of the Doc Johnson's 4" Naturals party gag dildo that in the past was advertised online as "the little guy, too cute, complete with his little balls," so I am looked at as "little" and "cute," that's one of the reasons why I want to become little in body size, I think I could get down to about 120 pounds, and maybe I should, Doc Johnson's doesn't advertise with that advertisement anymore, also I am subject to "Sorry Charlie, only great tasting tuna get to be **********," as adults, interpreting that as nobody wants to give Charlie blowjobs because his penis is "little," it's just another example of me having to fight to live, and why should I have to do that as a 74 year old retiree? why "be fruitful and multiply" if I have to fight to live? other examples of me having to fight to live are: 👁️) when a female date I had in St. Augustine when I went down there on a surfing trip said "You're too small" when we stripped down at her digs that evening, 👁️) when a Russian female on xhamster said "Your penis is too small, I'm going to go out and find a huge cock to suck, goodbye," 👁️) when an Asian female here at xhamster who was from Greensboro, NC said "Your penis is pathetic," 👁️) when a female here on xhamster from Missouri said "You have a baby cock"...............👁️) I stated my religion as Christian here. I am not just any Christian, I am a non-participating Episcopal Christian, meaning I don't participate in any church activities other than funerals. My religion does not require baptism by immersion or belief in Purgatory. I was christened as a newborn, and I don't remember a thing from that. My late mom told me an Episcopalian christened in that religion would never go to Hell, so I'll take it. If I stray from their ways like is mentioned when members recite the prayer for absolution in church, it is possible to admit you strayed "like lost sheep," even though I've never farmed sheep or vegetables or anything, and after admitting that then I get forgiven, or absolved, such as if I strayed and got into "the devil made me do it" sex alot I could get absolved, if I don't go in for a church service then I live with sin but am allowed to continue my membership. They taught me that to be a good member I should go to church once a month. I don't ever go, actually I don't want to lie and claim I am a sheep farmer, I've heard of "Thou shalt not lie," so maybe I'm better off not getting absolved. 👁️) 👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️👁️